Times now ; Times then

Today's a tranquil day for me, or rather I would say, super boring day.....I had too many things in my platter until yesterday evening and even today morning and suddenly everything seems so nothing for me now. It happens sometimes and i don't think any one would have escaped feeling such a way at one or the other point of time in their life... In fact, I don't feel low, but high, very high in terms of energy and spirit. But, the fact that I have nothing to do today is something I hadn't expected of. And, when suddenly i realize that all i have to do is to sit calm and quite and enjoy half a day all to myself, I feel happy, boring, angry, I am confused.

And suddenly, this journey of going down the memory lane thing started even with out my knowledge, i felt so involved in it, i would say. More than enjoying the past memories, I was doing a little analysis of it. Now, don't think I was thinking why did i do that and what should have been done instead. No..I dint do that. But, instead, i was analyzing the effects of every single thing what i did back then and what are the consequences that are happening even until today because of what i did mindless thinking who would know....

I mean there wasn't any such a big crime though,but yet things our parents would normally keep their children off from such. And, when i realized every single thing that had happened in my life is a consequence of what i had done before, I was little surprised and was thinking, had i realized this a little earlier.......?

And, this is exactly what our parents tell us, Time is our teacher. Of course time is our teacher, not just teacher, a friend that helps you recover from sad thoughts, a mentor that teaches how to get matured in your life and handle things wisely and a lover that helps you enjoy the moment you live in and a parent that always keeps a check on you and a tough competitor that makes you run racing ahead of it to win every tiny little thing in your life. Get up before 6, get ready before 8. Go to office before 9. Finish the target before 30th etc etc etc.

And, all the while I was thinking of time as our worst friend god has given, then i realized times is a wonderful friend he has given us. For, the time keeps us so alive and human, letting us to win sometimes and lose sometimes, teaching us to know the ups and downs of life and imbibing the sportsmanship of life in us in parallel.

The other half

Our relationship are getting too complicated to handle these days, thanks to the technology that gave us a sinister instrument called Mobile Phones. I too was one of them, thrilled and enjoyed every benefit of the mobile phone and was so involved in exploring every feature of it. And, slowly mobile phone became a part of my life and it became my passion to always look out for new models and new features etc. Then, comes the intermission in my life when my former boy friend (now my husband) and I started getting annoyed with each other when either of us get an engaged tone or find the network out of coverage area or when not got a reply for our messages. And, back then we didn't realize we both faced same issues with each other. And, we both were working at different companies and that too in Marketing and Business Development.

Then, came the climax of our fight when once he lost his mobile on a conference trip and I couldn't reach him for an entire day with out realizing that he has lost his mobile and is unable to inform me either until evening. So, then the truth just dawned upon us that the sole reason for our all these catfights is this stupid and sinister little monster mobile phone.

And, that all was needed to realize and understand how sadly we have become slaves/dependents on technology and more sadly how we have lost that "TRUST" factor in relationships. When we get an engaged tone, there might be so many reasons like the other party might have got an irritating marketing call or an affectionate call from their mom/dad/sis/bro or might as well have got a wrong number. For people especially before marriage and just married couple, its always a doubt. Though, all of us convince ourselves by, "No way.....I completely trust my husband/wife and I am not that stupid to spoil my relationship by these unnecessary issues", our conscience knew it well what we think inside our mind.

For a boy friend or a girl friend, its always "is he talking to Pooja?" Check...Call Pooja.Check.Busy...Check..Boy friend...Busy...Check..Its Over and Out..Poor guy, so much for a busy network.
And, for newly married couples, its "whether he would have had an affair before who he is speaking to now?".

And, by the time you are done with this cat and mouse game and get tired with all such baseless guesses and stupid speculations, you would have easily crossed your thirty and wouldn't have time for such issues.You could notice that the number of calls n messages have gone less to 2/3 to a Zero some days.

Well, I think this what is better for all of us to have a healthy relationship. Earlier days, when our parents were at their 20's n 30's they dint have any mobile phones or access to their spouses 24X7 and they should have been absolutely happy about it. I am sure they too would have fought and argued with each other for petite issues, but never on not attending a call or not replying for a message for sure. And, the live proof is the number of divorce cases filed in those ages. I dint mean to say the poor mobile phones are the sole reason behind all these complications, but, the Technology itself plays an important part in managing and making our lives, I would say. TV, Internet, Mobile etc can never be avoided today, but can still be controlled and managed.

For me, I am the one using the mobile phone and not the other way around. Simple.

My first blog.....

There have been so many times earlier I took the initiative of starting a blog and posting my views, but not realizing the fact that I was never ready for a serious blogging....Whenever I think of something new (mostly weird) ideas, concepts and thoughts, the urge to start blogging and also a guilt of not blogging all these times comes in parallel to me. And, then, my mind says "whats the big deal n who's gonna read yaar?"

There is nothing gonna be in any format, all my posts are straight from my thoughts and as a free spirit, I will not  restrict myself to the race or religion i belong to. I have always been told to live a default manual set up by the religion and every time i tend to break the rules and come out of it, I am just simply sent back to basics from where I came. And whenever I think who or what is this superstitious force that keeps me in its/his loop always, I started realized that it must be the Super Power/Almighty/God.

So, don't think I will start blogging my religious experiences and all, because, for me its not fair justifying one's belief when there is absolutely no need to prove yourself or your belief or religion. This blog is all about my philosophical thoughts, my views on the people and place where we live.

So, India is where I live and to be specific I live in Chennai and I read a lot. I am not imaginary like Amina from Syria. I dont face any religious or national crisis undergoing or being subjected to any such terrors. India being a free country as free as people wont give a damn even if you are a corrupted politician and make millions and billions of money at the cost of the interest and economical growth of the country.

I will talk about politics but not in detail, because I think the change has to come from within the people and not from some so called politicians. I strongly believe in democracy, but India has started a new form of democracy which no country can dare follow it because of its strong people force. 

I will continue blogging and if at all if some one gets to read the post, please do let me know of your comments.

Rehana Khan